The Latest. Hmm.

Since last weekend, I've come to an agreement with my ex that while I won't be getting full support, I'll get pretty close to it. I also had my lawyer add an amendment that says he pays for before and after school care for the duration of my son's schooling. So now I'm just waiting for him to sign it so we can take it to the judge. We have a court date of May 2nd set up. If my ex agrees to the terms, I can be divorced as soon as 2 1/2 weeks from now.

Some days I'm up, some days I'm a little down. But I'm no where near as down as I was four months ago. So this IS starting to get a little easier. But I have to be honest. I've become involved with someone I met on match.com and he sure is good at taking my mind off of my ex! My dad says this is just a "mask" or bandaid and that it won't last. But I like my bandaid just fine, thank you very much.

I also found a house that I plan on putting an offer on tomorrow. Cross your fingers for me because the last house I put an offer on was outbid. grrr

Screwed.

Saw my lawyer today. Apparently a wife can only take her husband "to the cleaners" if he actually has money to take. My lawyer seems to be on his side. Actually, I'm pretty angry with my lawyer right now. When she gave me the depressing news about how much child support I could actually end up getting per month, I started crying and she said I was "acting like a two-year old." Because I said, "I'm screwed. He gets to run off with his girlfriend and have a great time and I'm screwed."

Then I went with my realtor to look at 10 houses and out of those 10, I would only consider living in two and neither one is making me too happy. Those were just the only ones I would even consider. One would mean driving all the way across town for work and taking my son to school. The other one doesn't even have a driveway. It has a garage in an alley way behind the house.

So I have two months to get out of this house, move in another one - - - BUT the kicker is, we have to have THREE CLOSINGS all on the SAME DAY to make this work. It's a long story and a huge mess.

I honestly right now feel as bad and as scared as I did when I first found out he was cheating on me three months ago. It's like I've just been kicked in the stomach AGAIN.

April Fool

I love brand new months now. Each new month that comes means I'm closer and closer to not feeling like shit anymore. So Happy April, Me!

I've got good news and I've got bad news. The bad first? Okay. I cried again last night. Grr. BUT I have two good newses! Good news #1: I may have already sold my house and it's only been shown once. Good news #2: My blind date was actually kind of fun and I'm seeing him again next week.

SO. Things I have to try and remember:
1) The ex isn't worth the salt in my tears.
2) Don't take dating so seriously. Just go out and have fun - meet new people.

Leave for Vegas tomorrow. Should be interesting!