Screwed.

Saw my lawyer today. Apparently a wife can only take her husband "to the cleaners" if he actually has money to take. My lawyer seems to be on his side. Actually, I'm pretty angry with my lawyer right now. When she gave me the depressing news about how much child support I could actually end up getting per month, I started crying and she said I was "acting like a two-year old." Because I said, "I'm screwed. He gets to run off with his girlfriend and have a great time and I'm screwed."

Then I went with my realtor to look at 10 houses and out of those 10, I would only consider living in two and neither one is making me too happy. Those were just the only ones I would even consider. One would mean driving all the way across town for work and taking my son to school. The other one doesn't even have a driveway. It has a garage in an alley way behind the house.

So I have two months to get out of this house, move in another one - - - BUT the kicker is, we have to have THREE CLOSINGS all on the SAME DAY to make this work. It's a long story and a huge mess.

I honestly right now feel as bad and as scared as I did when I first found out he was cheating on me three months ago. It's like I've just been kicked in the stomach AGAIN.