Then winter is a good time for it. Gives you an excuse to stay in, hide under a blanket, and not worry about things like yard work, or selling your house right away.
But now Spring is coming. In fact, our weather has been so crazy that the temps are actually going to be as high as 76 later this week. Which means, more uncharted territory.
Over the weeks I've struggled with keeping this house vs selling this house. The more I get used to things, the more I'm leaning toward just staying here. However, until I get exact amounts from THE LAWYERS I won't know if I can afford to refinance. So I'm waiting on that before I list the house.
The lawyers have begun going back and forth now. They're currently discussing custody arrangements. It's funny... the lawyers seem to be fighting more than me and my ex are. I just want it over with so I can fully move on and make some decisions.
Since I posted last, I don't think I've cried once. I've gotten mad a couple of times and the sadness is still there... but the despair seems to be gone. One thing that is helping with that is my weight loss. The other day I was down 14 pounds. I've since gained a couple back. But yesterday I went to Old Navy and actually fit into some much smaller sweaters that I'd usually wear. So that euphoric feeling is kind of taking over the "whoa is me" crap.
I also ditched R because he wasn't putting me first at all - - and who needs that? I'm tired of being men's second priority. I also joined a couple of dating websites. That's been interesting to say the least. No dates yet, but some odd conversations - including an hour-long one last night at 1AM with a guy that lives an hour away! Again, he's got two kids and a job he loves so he's not going anywhere and neither am I so finally cut the conversation off and said Adios. Difficult to do
'cause he seemed really cool but I feel like I'm getting stronger and that I'm not going to settle.
I'll be okay on my own until somebody better comes along. I'll be okay...
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