JUST MOVE ON ALREADY.

So I'm reading this book called "It's Called a Break-Up Because it's Broken" and in it they say DO NOT CALL YOUR EX. DO NOT CALL YOUR EX. THEY DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU. YOU'LL ONLY FEEL BAD EVERY TIME YOU HANG UP. And the book is right. So I thought, "I'm not going to call...." But then he's got my son so I had to call to see if he could keep him an extra 30 mins. And he tells me he's hired a lawyer of his own since I'm "getting the best divorce lawyer in town." And I told him I thought he wasn't going to contest anything and he said he doesn't want to but wants someone else to look over the agreement. And when I got off the phone, I totally agreed with what I had read the night before in that dang book. That I do always feel like crap after talking with him. UGH!!! It just ticks me off so much that I'm miserable and he's so dang happy to be getting rid of me. I JUST WANT TO SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On another note, I called the bank today and found out that I can sell this house without selling the other one first. And after Douche's name is off of this loan, he can apply for a new loan to buy the old house so I won't have to worry about it anymore. And then after I sell this house, I'll have about 50k to put on a new one. Because I know I'm going to take a hit on this house since the market SUCKS ASS right now and I'd like to have some extra cash to put a security system on a new house. Makes me feel safer at night knowing that I have that alarm. I've kind of gotten used to having one!

On even another note, I've been talking to my ex-boyfriend a lot (we'll call him R) and he's coming over Friday for dinner and a movie and to meet my son. I wouldn't necessarily recommend contacting an old flame if you've just been dumped by your husband because it's very confusing and you can't help but compare him to the asshole that just dumped you. And that's not very fair to the old flame. As for R, he seems fine with it although I haven't really told him the full scope of how dejected I feel right now. And part of me is wondering if this is just something I'm doing to boost my self esteem. And then another part of me is saying "WHO CARES. YOU'RE THINKING TOO MUCH. GO OUT AND HAVE FUN. JEESH!!!"

I think the 2nd part of me is winning over the 1st part.